Tuesday 24 July 2001 // 1626 EST

Seeing: Big puffy clouds

Hearing: Chicane -- No Ordinary Morning

Touching: A few dollars in my pocket

Tasting: Homemade pizza

Thinking:
So where are we? It's been a more than interesting past few days, to be honest, I'm sorry I haven't updated really, but I've been werking on some things to make this whole deal a little better looking. Eventually, when I figure out the HTML(which shouldn't be hard, it'll require time more than anything else) I'm going to play a little bit with the thoughts page and do some indenting, make it look cooler..and if you haven't noticed already, I've replaced the dreambook-eliminated all the old messages and introducted a new format. No, I haven't made an announcement or anything yet, I want to wait until I do the thoughts page changes until I do something like that, but we'll see how that all goes...those changes might be infectious and I might wind up doing it to lots of the pages around here, you never know. Summertime is like that, I get the strongest urge to werk on my website. And I have been, so nyah.

Gundam 08th MS Team is on Toonami now. I'm more than thrilled, you have no idea..another gundam series is gonna own...I saw the first episode last night, and it was pretty good, the effects and everything were pretty good, not as good as Gundam Wing, naturally, but still pretty good. It was a little fast paced for it's own good, but I still thought it was good, I think I'll pay attention to it, it's a good series..if I can manage to stay awake every night to see it. Speaking of staying awake all the time, I decided that I'm going to make 3AM my sort of bedtime, unless something silly is going on. I'm tired of waking up feeling like death warmed over and wanting to skip werk and go back to bed, although I'm not really sure if that'll fix the problem at all.

This weekend was really something interesting. Friday night I had a chance to see Tiffy again for the first time in way too long, and it was more than a pleasure-I mean, seeing old friends again for the first time is always a wonderful thing, but seeing Tiffy was a rare treat, one that I sincerely hope isn't so rare anymore-we went to the Double T and chilled and ate and had a good time and well, she paid too much....I should have looked at the amount of money she gave me before I stuffed it into my pocket(I paid with my checkcard), and she overpaid me...that girl, I swear, I love her to death. But it was good getting to the Double T again, I haven't been there in way too long, and I used to go to the place like every other week or so, even for just coffee or something, and the food is always good. The atmosphere is nice, people are talking and laughing and having a good time, walking around and going in and out, it's just a lot of fun...maybe next I should hit the Silver Diner and sit at the counter like we did a while ago...I forget who I was with, but I remember being single and thinking the waitress was ridiculously cute...and I think she liked me too. Saturday I slept a lot, heh-but I got up and hung out with Amy and Erin at Shorty's, Feelgood's bar in Baltimore. It's a nice little place, it's really intimate and feels good, everything that I thought a bar should feel like, to be honest..when we got there it was a bit early, so there wasn't anyone around, so we pulled up to the bar and got started-but children, if there's anything I've learned in my time, a Saketini is NOT a drink you start the night with. I swear, I drank it and felt it at the same time. Sake is more than an aquired taste. I like it and all, but it's still really strong, and I really don't know if I'll ever get over that. But over the course of the night, I had several interesting drinks, some of which whose names I don't really remember-including something more than yummy with mint and sugar in it that I downed in something like 3 minutes. Oh yeah, by the way, if you ever make it to Shorty's, you should have a Sidecar. It's yummy. In the meantime, I need to get out with Erin and Amy more often, it was way too much fun, we sat along the bar and talked about old times and the parties we've been to and the parties we wanted to go to and the times we had and the things we've seen...everything that happened and everything we've experienced, the things we feel about the scene and about the parties and about everything, about our friends and families and our loved ones...and we talked and we talked and it was so wonderful, and by the time we left, I had sobered up some...Erin's kind of right in her theory, drink up early and sober up for the drive home. I'm happy I managed to sober up enough to make it home, to be honest. I had my doubts about myself, but I did good. Even managed to stop at Taco Bell and grab something to eat before I made it home. But you can bet that after I got home that playing counterstrike while you're tipsy is NOT an easy thing at all...and then I ate some and went to sleep.

Sunday was prety uneventful, save being at home and chilling, I took a nap and probably should have hung out with Emily(not to be confused with eMily), who's home from the west coast and wanted to spend time with me, but I didn't get around to it, sorry hon, I overslept that night too late to call you and hang out, I didn't want to ring your house at like 11PM, especially when you live with your rents. I know the feeling. And then Sunday night everything else came crashing in, and since then it's been kind of werking through things with Girl that's kept me so occupied. With any luck, things are better now but still kind of edgy, so I don't know about that, they have been all day yesterday and last night. What to do about it? I don't know. I suppose we'll just have to wait and see.

Today I drove to werk and looked out of my car window at the big puffy clouds in the sky and I was so happy, they made my heart jump a bit..they were so big and puffy and for some reason they made me hopeful, they made me want to go up and fly through them, they made me want to cut them with my wake and they made me want to push through them and feel them fly over my skin, they made me want to fly, up with the sun and under the dark of the shadows the clouds leave, they made it seem like walking around on the ground was just so boring...this is why I like driving in the summertime, I can roll the windows and watch the clouds pass by and pretend that I'm flying, miles from the ground, that I'm up in the air...But that's the story of my life, I suppose, always wanting to fly, always wanting my wings. I don't know if I'll ever really get them. Sometimes I just want to get away and do something specatcular that will take me away from all of this...I suppose dancing is the closest thing I have right not to flying.

Speaking of which, I'll probably be going to Buzz this friday, I haven't asked everyone I've wanted to, but I'm definitely going, I'm not gonna miss the caffene tour for anything this year, this is going to be some earth-shattering trance and some mind-numbing house...I'm really looking forward to it, and I'm planning on getting there early and staying late...I suppose I should warn anyone who's interested in partying with me that this is how it's gonna have to be. ;) We'll just see what happens, won't we? I think it'll be good to get back out on the dancefloor...I'll need a couple of glowsticks, of course-I feel so naked when I party without them.