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5-6 April 1998 - That was the day when all the bad things I ever did in my entire life came back to me. All the chain letters I never sent out..all the people I ever lied to....all the little white lies I ever told....all the people I ever yelled at..all the times I ever got angry.
I'm broken.
I'm dying.....and everything that I loved or held dear to me is gone.....ripped from me....and I walk through my life dead now....there is no joy. Only pain.
7 April 1998 - There is only the eternal silence of heartbreak. Nothing else.
9 April 1998 - My mind is silent.....my soul is burning...empty.....my body survives.....my heart is dying......today was a day......
I laid in the grass today.....it rained. Mother Sky opened up and cried for me....she cried with ,me...she tried to cleanse me with her tears......and then Father Wind carressed me......tried to make me strong...made me face him....and I did....
the cold....the wet....water running down my skin.....the water running down my face....is not important- I cried...and the rain hid my tears...my weeping...inside and out.....and I'm all out of tears.
10 April 1998 - This is a warning, I suppose. Millenium's Child will be torn down and rebuilt-in a subtler image.....a little more abstract....a little more personal.....less flamboyant, but a little more spectacle....you'll see. Until then- read this. This is a really good description of my life right now......
Dark angel
You don't want me but I don't care
I'm independent when there's noone there
I'm not a substitute and it's wearing thin
Why can't you see that I won't give in
There's a rumor how can it be true
The way that people talk it's as if they knew
And though I try I hope you understand
If I'm alone with you it could get out of hand
Please don't make me wait
In front of you
Love comes too late
We're in a spin
Confused within
It must be fate
Love comes too late
I believe it was meant to be
But when you threw me out I guess it made me see
It would be a drag from my point of view
That's the kind of thing that I'd expect from you
What can I do I'll never be the same
Another day without you would drive me insane
It's a real life drama that I can't work out
Don't think about it let me take you out
Please don't make me wait
In front of you
Love comes too late
We're in a spin
Confused within
It must be fate
Love comes too late
Electronic -- "Dark Angel"
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